my left knee has been hurting all day. i put my brace on for extra support, but i know i need more than that. i’ve had knee issues for a while, and they stem back to treeplanting over a decade ago. but, after two pregnancies, two births, carrying my kids, breastfeeding them and all that other stuff that mama’s do for their kids, my body is screaming for attention. and it’s LOUD! and yes, my knee pain is connected to breastfeeding, as all your muscles are somehow joined to each other, as are your nerves. i’ve been hunched over for so long, tightening my shoulders, by back, which has now travelled down to my knee. the knee pain is not new and comes and goes. when i get to the Y and yoga regularly it feels better.
i went to a highly recommended chiropractor in town, who basically told me that the left side of my body is more messed than my right, but who are we kidding, my whole spine area is a huge ball of messed up mess!
when bear was a baby i carried him in a sling, but was pretty good at switching sides. when lion was a baby, i only carried him on one side. sure, i used the ergo and eventually carried him on my back, but i’ve always been a sling mama, and now that my babies are no longer babies i am really feeling that pain and paying the price of all of that one sided carrying!
my chiro was so kind and reassured me that although my initial scans weren’t great, they weren’t horrific either, and that there is lots of potential to get my body to where it should be. she also sent me for x-rays, as a precaution, especially after my pituitary gland tumour history. her and i will discuss those images on friday.
|[ the dudes and i at hillside, 2011 ]|
i feel like this year, i have slowly started to harness back some control of my body again. i lost it to my kids years ago and then my tumour, but now i am slowly finding ways to really nurture it again. i was going to the gym regularly in the winter and spring, but completely fell off the wagon in the summer. now, i am ready to get back into that routine as well.
my body is screaming for attention, and finally, i feel like i can give it what it needs.
how’s your self care?